oh, and about that weaning thing

i guess it's getting to be time for me to wean. i just can't let it go!

maybe it's early onset empty nest syndrome. or something. or maybe it will officially mean my babies are gone. no more...

believe me, this is not about leo anymore. he could care less. he's totally in love with the bottle. however, i cannot let go of that final, early morning feeding. of course, it's all i can bear because i STILL have a painful little infection that won't go away (yes, i got it checked out after reading an article about a woman with four friends under 40 with breast cancer and one of those cancer's showing up as sore on the nipple! the NP is not worried about my probs. apparently anything that gets a mouth on it every day is just never going to heal).

anyway, the biting that occurred yesterday morning is going to help, i think. i'm not really liking that at all. once they get into the bottle who lets them do any god forsaken to thing to its nipple, they forget about kindness to nipples. they forget about everything they learned in the breastfeeding etiquette class.

anyway, in the mean time, doing the count down (freak out) to one-year old (less than a week!) when we can give cow's milk. looks like he will be getting it a few days sooner though cause i'm not buying one more can of $27 organic formula. why organic when i don't absolutely insist on EVERYTHING else being organic (but i give it a good try!)? oh, because that's one of my little parental freakies. so let me have it, okay?

sorry, gotta run and FREAK OUT about the upcoming party. parties are just vestibules for freak out. you can't really do anything in advance, including clean your house, so really all you can do is freak out (and rearrange your walls). or maybe normal people just save the freak out for the day of and act normally until then. are there really people like that? normal people? oh wait...i'm married to one...

however, i wonder if these so-called "normal" people aren't married to freakers, who do all the freaking for them, do they then become freakers (about things like "hey, we didn't really plan any kiddie food for this kid party; whoops!)?

talk amongst yourselves.

i keep accidentally catching so many good things on NPR; nothing better!:

• Foo Fighters' David Grohl on Fresh Air (totally downloaded his new tune "Home")
• Interview with and music from Jesca Hoop
• Amazing story about two men who met in an Alzheimer's support group. I only caught the last half and now can't find it. Anyone?

Comments

[Tracy]

I buy the organic formula too. Every time I pay the premium for it I can't help but feel I'm getting ripped off. But, it's the mother guilt that makes me do it anyhow.

[island jen]

27$ for a can of formula is PREMIUM prices?? I live in Canada and that is standard (actually On sale!)- it would be much MORE if I was looking for organic formula (which I don't even think we have here)...
I bottle fed too... man, do I feel ripped!

[amy]

Hey, I heard the Alzheimer's interview, too, and it was amazing. I'm almost positive it was on Day to Day.

In my house, we just take turns being the freaker and the calm one. Mostly. It's not good when we each think it's the other's turn to be the calm one...